More than 2 years ago, someone wrote a song about me, aptly called The Dreamer. I've always been mezmerized by the song. I've always wondered if it was an accurate portrait of me. I came to the conclusion some time ago that because Jamie knew me as well, if not better, than anyone else, it had to be mostly truthful. But recently, I've decided that this just isn't me anymore. All that wonder and awe and enchantment and curiousity has disappeared. "The flash" (ummm, read Emily of New Moon) is gone too. And I miss it. My world has become so disillusioned over the past year, so embittered. My "full-of-lifeness" (as my mom used to call it) is practically gone. I know that this is just growing up. But not everyone loses all that as they get older. So why me?


She watches summer's rising
And her eyes see everything
The daisies and the clover
And the decay in-between, the decay in-between

They say she's always listening
That she wields power with her hands
But I want to know that distant stare
And what she fears at hand, what she fears and
When will it be…clear?

But I know that she loves dancing
It's just music moves her so
And if I reach out this weary hand
Will her legacy grow? Will her legacy then grow?

Can't you see she's dancing now?
Can't you see she's dancing?
Can't you see she's dancing?

She hopes in something deeper
Than words can e'er express
A breath of peace in wilderness
She awaits the coming rest.
She awaits the coming rest

Can't you see she's dancing now?
Can't you see she's dancing?
Can't you see she's dancing?

- thoughts provided by Katey Orr @ 1:00 PM

Monday, December 29, 2003

 

You'd think that with all this free time on my hands I'd find the time to blog, right? Oh well, that's life. And life's been good the past couple days. I went shopping and saw Return of the King again with Anna and Lindsay on Friday, went to dinner and saw Cheaper by the Dozen with Jennifer, Haleigh, Lydia and Charissa on Saturday and went ice skating with my viola girls (Emily, Neda and Joanna) on Sunday. Haha, and then Anna and I started making a movie today. THAT was fun!
But for now, I'm off to pack for Awakening retreat at Camp Willow Run. My favorite place on earth. Lindsay and I went to Awakening last year and had a blast. So we're going back. And I get to drive! Granted, Littleton is only an hour and a half or so north, but it's the farthest my parents have let me drive by myself. So this is the big "first road trip" experience (even though it's only slightly a road trip)! And I'm completely stoked! So, I hope y'all have an awesome New Year!

- thoughts provided by Katey Orr @ 11:58 PM