Discussion time! First of all, just as a disclaimer, I’m not fishing for any particular answers or whatever here. Promise. I just want to know what y’all honestly think!
Jess and I were talking a couple weeks ago about how neither of us has ever really dated (although, this past week especially, she’s done a lot more “not dating” than I have!). She said, in a most loving way, that the thought of her dating someone seemed very normal, but the thought of me dating someone was just odd. I happened to agree with her because, after all, she’s gorgeous and awesome and I’ve yet to come across a guy who’s met her and hasn’t been attracted to her at some point. But after she said that, other people started telling me the same types of things. “I just can’t picture you dating anyone” or “You can’t date anyone, you’re Katey!”, etc. Even my parents think I’m romantically inept, as evidenced by their reactions when asked, in my presence, if I have a boyfriend (“Not her!”). It’s not like any of this makes me mad or even sad. And it’s not like I’m dying to be dating someone. Quite the opposite in fact. I don’t want to date anyone, including the guy I like, at this point in my life. It’s just that all of this…concerns me. Am I really that undatable? I know guys often don’t know what to make of me (I’ve been told that on several occasions), but I didn’t think it was that bad. So I want y’alls’ honest opinions. I realize some of y’all don’t know me in real life, so maybe this is more for those that do. And they have no excuse for not answering (*coughChrisandJoncough*). Am I completely undatable? Will I forever be “that girl”?

- thoughts provided by Katey Orr @ 10:38 PM

 

I realized tonight that I've put myself in a bad position. We all know that I have my heart set on going to Rhodes and thus, Memphis. No question about it. But the fact is, I'm still applying to 3 other schools and there is a chance that I may not get into Rhodes. I will be absolutely heartbroken if I don't get in. For a while, that prospect seemed almost ok. I really did like Furman when I went this fall and William & Mary wasn't all bad either. But I really don't want to be in stinkin' Greenville, SC. Or Williamsburg, VA. Or Oxford, GA. The only place I want to be next year is Memphis, TN (hehe, or Memphis, TX). And that just may not be possible. I've tried reconciling myself to the fact that if I end up at W&M, I'll have the program I really want. But if I don't get into Rhodes, there's no way I'm getting into W&M. I keep telling myself that I can double major at Furman. But my brother's still gonna be there and it's still SC. I won't even let myself think about ending up at Oxford/Emory. The thought is so disturbing, so disgusting, so vile...if that ends up the case, I'll transfer as soon as possible. I've always said that, being me, I'll be happy most anywhere I end up. But unfortunately, I've put Rhodes and Memphis on such a pedestal that I'm afraid I won't be happy anywhere but there. And that scares me. I just have the feeling that I've set myself up for a disaster.

- thoughts provided by Katey Orr @ 1:15 AM