I think I have a problem. The problem is that I don't care.
It's not that I'm apathetic. I'm really not (for the most part). It's not that I'm "ho-hum, whatever" about things, it's just that I don't like the things I should. Like America. I'm not a huge fan of America. I think Johnny Depp's quote about America being like a dumb dog was great. My international relations teacher had what ended up essentially being a 9/11 memorial service-esque thing. I wanted to skip class that day. I almost did. Or at least, I almost said something to him about how I didn't feel comfortable being in there while he played all his patriotic Mariah Carey songs (yes, he honestly did play "Hero"!) and gave his teary-eyed speeches. That stuff disgusts me. America's not all that great. If we were all poor, we wouldn't appreciate all our freedoms all that much. And if we were all the same economic status as we currently are, but under a dictator, think we'd care?
I also don't really care about the white t-shirt ordeal. Part of it is my demographic. The administration's "discrimination" (which it isn't) is against mostly lower class black males. Of which I am none. I don't wear white t-shirts, so I don't care. If they were to ban gray t-shirts, would I care? Probably. But I still wouldn't think that we have a God-given right to wear gray t-shirts. We don't. And it's ridiculous to think so. It's also ridiculous to accuse the administration of being racist, when the policy is there to cut down on gang activity. Who's in gangs anyway? Not well off white boys! The fact remains that a lot of the people that wear white t-shirts are in the same demographic as those who are in gangs.
I guess the crazy thing is that I really do care about some things. I got insanely pissed off at Natalie and Wendy yesterday for insulting my music multiple times. Who were we listening to? Derek Webb. My brothers have, on several occasions, insulted Katy Bowser, Eric Peters and Nickel Creek. Maybe I care more about that because Katy is a friend of mine and I've met Eric and Derek a couple times and they're the nicest guys ever. Maybe that's why I care. But maybe it's because their music actually means something to me. Maybe it's because their music has shaped my music. Maybe my music is more important to me than I thought.

- thoughts provided by Katey Orr @ 6:25 PM

Tuesday, September 16, 2003

 

Time for more questions!

What is(was)...
1) The best part about your day?
2) That time of day/night in which you're most alive?
3) Your favorite day of the week?
4) Your favorite holiday?
5) The first thing you think when you wake up?

- thoughts provided by Katey Orr @ 4:55 PM

Sunday, September 14, 2003

 

Oh dear. I need a senior quote. Like, by the end of the week (I think). I thought I'd had it all figured out, but now I'm not so sure. So here's some of my choices. Tell me what you think. Or give me new suggestions (did I already post about a senior quote? Or am I just mixing that up with cc.net?). My favorites right now are #1, #3 and #6. And I like #5 too. Which is why I'm having trouble!

1)Only the curious have something to find - Nickel Creek
2)The question is not whether we will die, but how we will live - Joan Borysenko
3)Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever - Mahatma Gandhi
4)Fear less, hope more; Whine less, breathe more; Talk less, say more; Hate less, love more; And all good things are yours - Swedish proverb
5)You can tell a man is clever by his answers. You can tell a man is wise by his questions - Naguib Mahfouz
6)What we call the beginning is often the end, and to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start - T.S. Eliot
7)We shall not cease from exploration. The end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time - T.S. Eliot

- thoughts provided by Katey Orr @ 10:09 PM