I hate it when people try to tell me something that I believe, when they don't believe it. I mean, honestly. If you're gonna tell me I'm wrong, at least know what it is I'm wrong about. Don't be rardish and make assumptions about me. NEVER make assumptions about me, because I will prove you wrong 80% of the time. But especially don't tell me what I believe. You have no idea.
For example, a friend of mine the other day started talking about Calvinism. She's very much not reformed. She goes to a charismatic church and Calvinism hasn't ever really been explained to her. Mostly just what she heard in World History. And the rumors that fly around her church. So (without knowning I'm reformed), she starts talking one day about how dumb Calvinist are. I mean, she flat out says "How could any Christian in their right mind believe in that?". Needless to say, I was quite pert in saying that I infact am quite reformed and believe it wholeheartedly. So then she starts telling me that it's dumb and that we don't believe in missions trips or witnessing or anything and that we just live our lives in a Christian bubble. Gah! This coming from a girl who's part of "Christian cult" and eats lunch with only Christians and all that junk. So as I carefully explain that yes, we do missions trips (yeah, I mean, my church only supports a booty-load of missionaries and sends out a couple teams a year!) and such, she totally breaks me off and starts making fun of me! Dude! Not cool! I mean, I had some really good answers to her "questions" but she wasn't in the least bit willing to listen! I mean, if you're gonna attack something, you need to know something about it and you need to hear the other person's defense.

On the other hand, the boxes that come along with being reformed make me sick. I can't tell you how many times people tell me that my language isn't "Presbyterian" or "reformed" when I cuss (or even when I just use strong language!). If I had a nickel for every time, I'd have quite and extensive cd collection! I mean, it's just stupid. The way I talk has nothing to do with whether I'm reformed or not. Absolutely nothing. And for some reason, people, especially those who aren't reformed, expect me to be "better" than those who aren't. I mean, my yeesh! What a load of bull! And then there's those people that get mad everytime I bring up my Calvinistic points of view. I mean really, if someone says something about people choosing God, I'm gonna object to it. It's no different than an objection to someone saying that man gets to heaven by works. Now, it just so happens that I have the tendancy to get obnoxious with my objections, but that's usually just with Freddie. The fact remains that I'm gonna defend what I believe, just the same as anyone else. You don't have to get mad at me for doing so, 'cause you'd do the same. I mean, I don't need a room full of girls (from my PCA church, ironically) ganging up on me because I'm reformed and they're not (yeah, that's another problem I have...if you're gonna go around saying you're a "good PCA girl" or something to that effect, don't tell me you're not reformed. 'Cause then I'm just gonna get pissed at you for not knowing what the hell you're talking about). And you don't need to alienate me for the rest of my life, as one girl's done, because I'm reformed and you're not. Just freakin' accept that that's what I believe. Nothing you do is gonna make me change my mind. In fact, it's just gonna make up my mind even more. So don't be retarded, k?
- thoughts provided by Katey Orr @ 7:20 PM

Thursday, April 17, 2003

 

I apologize again for my absence. Things should start calming down now, though I will probably disappear into my history book in the week prior to May 9. But aside from that, I only have like 1 paper and not too many more tests and stuff to deal with before we get out of school, whenever that may be. I don't even know. I don't even know if anyone knows! Actually, the real reason things will be calm is that the best part of the school year is approaching and I only have 2 finals--history, which is sheer ridiculousness after the AP test (since we'll spend like 10 days watching movies between the 2!) and chemistry. And seeing as I got a 96 on the practice chemistry final 2 weeks ago, I should be good to go.

Anywhoo, while thinking about the summer and being gone and such, I've realized that there are some things that I'll miss. But that's part of life, ya know? Risking losing things you enjoy to gain things you'll enjoy more. That being said though, I've started a list of things I'll miss. Here it is as of now (in no particular order), but add to it if you wish!

1. Going to 10:30 movies with Hammy, the Bowen boys, Gary and whoever else might tag along
2. Picking the lilies that grow on the dirt road
3. Walking home from swim practice with my girls/going to Ci-Ci's after swim meets
4. Sleeping 'til 11am
5. Having lunch with Deidra
6. Working/making money
7. AIR CONDITIONING
8. Going to amusement parks and such with the youth group
9. Driving at night with all the windows open
10. Tuesday night bluegrass nights at Mellow Mushroom
11. Playing frisbee and such with the frisbee group
12. Grilling at Natalie's pool

- thoughts provided by Katey Orr @ 5:19 PM