I realized tonight that I've put myself in a bad position. We all know that I have my heart set on going to Rhodes and thus, Memphis. No question about it. But the fact is, I'm still applying to 3 other schools and there is a chance that I may not get into Rhodes. I will be absolutely heartbroken if I don't get in. For a while, that prospect seemed almost ok. I really did like Furman when I went this fall and William & Mary wasn't all bad either. But I really don't want to be in stinkin' Greenville, SC. Or Williamsburg, VA. Or Oxford, GA. The only place I want to be next year is Memphis, TN (hehe, or Memphis, TX). And that just may not be possible. I've tried reconciling myself to the fact that if I end up at W&M, I'll have the program I really want. But if I don't get into Rhodes, there's no way I'm getting into W&M. I keep telling myself that I can double major at Furman. But my brother's still gonna be there and it's still SC. I won't even let myself think about ending up at Oxford/Emory. The thought is so disturbing, so disgusting, so vile...if that ends up the case, I'll transfer as soon as possible. I've always said that, being me, I'll be happy most anywhere I end up. But unfortunately, I've put Rhodes and Memphis on such a pedestal that I'm afraid I won't be happy anywhere but there. And that scares me. I just have the feeling that I've set myself up for a disaster.
- thoughts provided by Katey Orr @ 1:15 AM